UJ: blah

Today it is supposed to rain..it's supposed to pour actually. I think it is fitting...since this is such a blah day! It's one of those days...when the world would be better if you could just stay in bed and watch John Hughes films all day long.

Why so dramatic? Well...it isn't something I should be all mopey about, but I am. I should be used to it by now, right? Well, my mom is going into the hospital today. She is probably there right now actually. My mom is a diabetic...and she has some circluation issues, which means chronic surgeries on her feet. This one, they hope...is the last one. It's something we have gotten used to in our family...she has surgery at least a couple times a year, but well...it still is something...it's hard to not get emotional about it. My mom is having surgery today...and I am here in Indiana and can't do anything to help her.

I think that is it...more than being worried or scared...I am feeling helpless. One of the last times she had surgery...I was home for the time being. I was able to go to the hospital with her and sit with her until they brought her in. I was able to come and visit her after she got out of recovery. I was able to come in everyday and just bring her whatever little trinket she needed that day. So...that is where I want to be right now...but instead I am sitting here in my office....just lamenting...and doing a pretty good rendition of "Oscar the Grouch!"

So, I will call...I will chit chat with her on the phone...and yes, I know it is helpful and that she needs that. But...well, it's still feels like it isn't enough.

So, if you read this...and want to...give my mom a second thought. She's one amazing lady....